An Unusual Update

I don't have anything fancy to say or a cute way to write this and I started writing it once or twice already and it sounds weird. So, I am sorry to have to announce this on a blog because that is awkward, but it was the best way I could think to let some people I really care about know what is going on with us without making more phone calls where I blubber and cry. I don't want to keep telling this over and over and speculating. I hope you understand.

Here's the maybe too personal details... you have been warned.

So the antibiotic didn't work and my doctor was baffled and thought either my kidneys weren't functioning properly (the blood test is being process right now) or I had bad complications with my IUD.

So she sent me to my OBGYN and everything was checking out fine on that end and I will spare you all the details (YUCK), but in the last exam with an ultrasound she started making strange faces. She tested some other things, took several more pictures and scans and showed me a big white mass with fluid all around it.

They are not sure what it is and they have some guesses, but she had never seen anything like it before and wanted it out immediately.

It has nothing to do with my IUD, or any of the symptoms that I have been experiencing over the last seven weeks.... that is a little frustrating because it feels like, "SOMETHING ELSE!!? And another unknown at that?!"

But the surgery is scheduled for tomorrow at noon and she is hoping to cut it all out and if she can't she will try something else that I will also spare you the details on and she said there is a chance she won't be able to cut it out, but at least once they can see it up close they might know more about it and go from there.

So. After I got done crying and crying like a baby I am thinking:

Well hooray for being sick all that time because I would NEVER have landed myself in that office for that ultrasound.

And with all trials, they help us learn and grow even if they completely suck at the time. I am completely jittery about my surgery tomorrow just because of the "unknown," but I am relying on my Heavenly Father and he knew that I needed a chance to exercise my faith.

I actually feel completely calm when I think about the future. I know this, and whatever else was making me sick for so long will get resolved and I will get back to being me.

It's just the right now that is.... totally crappy. See, I told you this post would not be well written or clever.

Anyway, that's what is going on. I will, of course, keep you posted when I am up to it.

But don't worry- these dudes are as cute as ever:


And although I am feeling nervous, jittery, and wishing I had more answers than questions regarding my body right now... I do feel very thankful and watched over by my Heavenly Father who knows me and my little family and loves us.