six months pregnant
living in my in-laws house now
it feels really strange to be here. the first morning i woke up and had to remind myself where i was and what i was doing here and that was a little sad because we miss our little house and ambrose has asked me a couple of times if we can go home- BUT- i am also feeling so grateful to my in-laws for having us in their home that i almost feel awkward. we have carved ourselves into their rooms, kitchen, living space...etc. and they are making us feel like we are doing them a favor. it is nice to be so well looked after. they leave wednesday and then we take over all the household responsibilities for three months.
so, we are on to whatever is next now. living day to day in someone else's house and living simply so that we can feel financially secure and confident in the future. it's strange, but good.
i dont really know what else to say for now. this morning ambrose and i went out exploring and i was feeling a little sorry for myself or something and we walked up to the temple grounds and i remembered how when he was a colicky baby i would wander up there all the time in desperation- trying something different to distract him from whatever was bothering him. i would hold him close and sing him primary songs and it would soothe him. today he reached up for me as i held him close, walking around the grounds and i sang him this song and it filled me with such peace that i looked around at all the beauty surrounding us and felt completely ridiculous for being sad. we are in a beautiful place and are being looked after. we are lucky.
so i guess that is my update. and thanks to all our friends who made our move possible either with your muscles or your time in watching ambrose and for all the well wishes. we are doing well. thank you.
15 comments:
first- cute dress. it lools really 80's to me for some reason, i love it.
second- your a great mom, ambrose and #2 are lucky to have you to take them to the temple and sing to them!
Good luck, my friend. I know sometimes I wish we had family nearby that could take care of us or help us out or even just invite us over to dinner every now and then, but then I also value my independence and like to be out on my own. So I am both a little bit envious of you, but also sad that things are not the way you wanted them. I know you'll do great with what you have been given.
yes, you are looking great!! how was the moving process? that can always be stressful, you should've called and i could've helped!!! i would love to be in laie, except for the flooding situation, i think it's a great place to be. one day when me and the kids had nothing to do i went and parked up behind and we walked up to the top of the hill and had a little picnic lunch up on the grass. it was so lovely. and i could see some of the progress of the temple renovation. maybe we'll come and visit you!! but i don't know exactly where the house is...
Yes, cute dress. And I am so glad you guys are enjoying your new space. And I am glad someones kindness has got you feeling the same akwardness I was feeling the other day when you offered to watch Eden for me for days on end while I am in the hospital. ;) You deserve lots of kindness and good things for all the kind things you do for others. We miss having you here in Hauula. We wanna come visit you. I'll text you later cause we'll be in Laie. Maybe we can play at the playground.
aaah i hate just being a broken record but i love that dresswheredidyougetiti'dwearoneeverysingledayjustlikethatifihadone.
seriously, where'd you get it?
but the actual post was even better. your sweetness and move on attitude rocks. i wish i could help you guys move (or at least sit there and watch nate help you move). love, melissa
you are such a beautiful little mom to be!!
oh yeah, and a current mom...
Stephanie, you are indeed in a wonderful place in the world, in your life, in time, in the Plan -- in that gorgeous dress! Wow!!! I'm totally digging the purple and your belly. You are so lucky, you have such a great option with housesitting and getting the renovated apt. You're prepping for your next adventure and I guess this is part of it! Living so far away is an adventure too, but I feel quite sad thinking about family and Linda and Dale and wishing I was living with them again, too and when I will see them next. All perspective I guess :)
Oh! Oh! I can't believe I just got the MOST recent update- but I didn't even look at this! I like this post and that moment you described with you and Ambrose- music has such powerful effects on me too! The words in that song were really nice. I think it is true that we can have more than one feeling at a time- these are rich feelings to have. I think it is also interesting to note the ease with which one feeling can transform into another. This post feels useful and uplifting to me. Thank you so much for the call! I still feel excited from it! Matti mentioned about all the kind things you do for others- and I thought, I can see that this is true... I have to say, I agree with everyone else on the dress- very cute.
it's 10:15 pm- I'm writing a paper and my heart is still warmed... :)
um, stop making me soooo sad please. i could list 20 reasons right now why this post made me sad in that, i miss my bestie sort of way. and you are sooo tan. i wish so so so much that i could be a bigger part of amby's litte or not so little life. i think i'll write him a letter, that's what i'll do. you are rocking this pregnancy, hot mama! and i look up to your mothering very much. and my heart goes out to your sweet family with regard to the new change in your living conditions. just because its a change, you know? anyway, great post, and a good time was had by all.
You look cute. Reading this reminded me of when I was out and about and I would see you and Amby on your little walks and I would sometimes join in. Remember those giant banana royals? Miss that. Miss you.
Hope you guys settle in well. We wish you guys the best. I'm not sure if my last comment saved or not, so just in case, thank you again for the cute soaps. You are so Sweet and the wonderful card. I really appreciate it. You guys will be so blessed for doing all you can to live within your means, etc. Think of the stories and memories you'll have to tell a couple years from now, and it'll be fun to see what new adventure you guys are on to. You are so SMALL, your cute pregnant belly and all. Do me a favor and go eat some Ted pies for me k? So you can get as big as me and then I won't feel like the only Hippo out there. j/k :)
you know what? I like you. really. I know we are mainly blogging friends, but I wrote it down that when I move back to Hawaii I will look you up. so watch out if you don't want me near. hehehe.
I hope you get lots of R&R time too. I was a mess when we moved- and wasn't even pregnant.
You deserve another serving of ice cream.
you look cute!
I got your message, but forgot to call you and it is now 11pm. so I thought I'd tell you: "si senorita I can go".
also why did you not call me when you were moving!?!!! remember we made a deal--I would watch Ambrose while you moved, to pay you back for watching Kaiya. hmmm!
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