Vacations are so great, but it is good that they do end eventually. I mean, how long can my kids go from place to place to place without snapping? They have been pretty great (all things considered) on this entire trip, but even the best kids in the world need home, routine, and healthy eating. They have had none of the above for almost four weeks.
You know what I love most about vacation though? Well lots of things like all the family and friends, the open schedule, the way I went ahead and gave myself a free pass to not bring my running shoes or worry about what I am eating (mysteriously my pants still fit... just barely), etc, etc, but above all
vacation gets you out of your everyday self and presents you with all sorts of people and places who are doing life differently and you just get to sit back and enjoy and maybe, when all is said and done, weigh the pros and cons about adding that to your repertoire of awesomeness that makes you YOU. (Did you follow that?)
For instance, not everyone feels like they have to do so many things or even be well rounded. This never really occurred to me until recently. I am not saying I ever was, but I'm pretty sure I tried and sometimes when you try your hand at everything you succeed at nothing.
Also, it's ok to make yourself unavailable to others. No one will die if you don't attend every club, group, play date, preschool, outing, answer every little text or phone call when someone is bored...etc. if it doesn't work for your family. I knew this deep down for a long time, but still didn't want to leave anyone hanging. You know what? No one cares that much. Ditch your computer and phone. Quit reading my blog and any others if you are neglecting something more important to do so.
What else? Oh yeah, find your passion and chase it down! So many of our friends and family are out here on the mainland chasing down their dreams and it's a beautiful thing. I love getting lost in things that make me happy and I need to do it more. It's amazing what people can create when they dedicate the time to it. I wonder what I'll be able to do with my two new classes, in my own writing dreams that I haven't been working toward at all, in creative sewing and photography that I have been wanting to work on once I can buckle down and dedicate more time to it.
And finally, this vacation has taught me that I am not patient with my kids. I need to be better. It's more important that anything else because I only get one shot at Ambrose and Asher at this age or any other. We can come out alive and on top or with two more apathetic, defensive teenagers in the world who feel misunderstood and like their parents put other things before them. No thank you. I'm not kidding myself into thinking they will want to spend all their teenage time with me, but if they can talk to me and feel secure with me during the process then hooray.
I think I'll change my blog title to "hey guys! check out this new whim...". Maybe when we get back. Oh the drama.