who am i?
when did this happen?
when did i turn into this ultra-weather-beaten, project doing mom?
weird.
but fun, and good, and it's what i am supposed to be doing right now.
i know it.
it's still just funny.
four years and 10 months ago i was running atop a very historic tower in ireland in only my underwear, converse, and t-shirt.
not too many years ago i could do what i wanted, buy whatever i wanted, sleep in, and have a body free of the wear and tear of two pregnancies, and a day to myself.
two and a half or so years ago i met the guys from the lawrence arms and most of lagwagon in the front bar before their show and rocked out all night in the pit.
five years and a few months ago a bunch of us went to a strokes concert in waikiki and missed the show and the bus home and spent the whole night running around and "borrowing" towels from random hotels so we could sleep on the beach somewhere.
oh yeah,
but then five years ago i met a very unique, complicated (in a good way), sweet, artistic, thoughtful, and passionate boy and fell in love.
two years ago tonight we took the ride of our lives down to castle medical center in kailua and went through the biggest ordeal we had ever felt or known.
two years ago tomorrow a loud, demanding, sweet, affectionate, sassy, hilarious, smart, lovable baby boy was born and i kept waiting for his mom to come pick him up and then i figured out he was mine.
i didnt just have a baby. i had a human being that i am responsible for for as long as i am living and i get to enjoy him for eternity.
i feel the weight of this and realize that we have a lot ahead of us, but we have already come so far.
i'll gladly give up running around in my underwear, meeting rockstars, staying out all night, and my figure for him. he's most definitely worth it.
19 comments:
Funny how life can change, isn't it...but I do hope you realize that in that photo with you and your baby you look positively RADIANT!
LOVE IT! We are all feeling that way! Everyday I think about how things ALWAYS change. They can't stay the same forever nor would we want them to. It is so great to stop and remember why we do it all. Those little eyes and beautiful smiles. LOVE IT!
sweet. just think how Ambrose will blush when he reads this one day. and I mean blush with the knowledge that his mom loves him, not blush because she seems uncool.
You still have a lovely figure missy. Being a mom really is the best feeling ever isn't it
such a great post!! and oh-so-lovely pictures. as always. you are so busy. i didn't realize you were baking so many things! next time ask me to help since i am so obstinate and didn't bother to offer . yes, we give up that old life when we get married and have babies. but it is so worth it, doncha think? despite those dumpy days...and wow, atop a building in ireland with nothing but undies and converse? and shirt? huh? can't say i ever did that! see you tomorrow. i may be by early to see if i can help with anything. see, i catch on, eventually. and i do hope ambrose likes his perfectly imperfect gift i crafted...i know he won't care for the details and for that i am so very grateful!
oh yeah. and you have a hotter body than me, and you're pregnant and i am sooo not.
thanks a lot for making me get tears on my shirt--i'm on my way to work ya know!
what a beautiful post!! congratulations on coming so far and all the milestones you're yet to conquer.
yey for moms! it really is the best feeling ever. I'm just glad our father in heaven put an extra dose of patience and love in us women. Because without it, it would be hard. But like you said, definitely worth it.
i jut really NEED to know WHY you were running around Ireland with no pants on!!!! My life will be at a stand still until I find out, just so you know.
Sounds like you've had a great life so far! so many good and fun memories!
holy crap, i love this post. i realate to it all too well, but you said it like i never could. so thanks for that. your a rock star.
and someday when our kids are older and out of the house and we have all the time in the world and a little money to spare (wishful thinking) we will have to have a huge girls trip and go do things like run around in our underwear in foreign countries and meet real rock stars and stay up all night. and it will be great. till then, we get to be our own rockstars and do what it is we are really here to do!
love you steph!
speaking from the other side of the fence, you definitely have the good life. yes it's nice to stay out and it feels liberating not to be tied down by anything/one, but you also long for those very things that you posted about. make up is over rated, plus don't all pregnant women have a certain 'glow' about them anyways? and you have people to enjoy the fruits of your labor, because cooking for one can be kind of...lonely. so yahoo for families and cooking and pregnancies and all the stress that comes with it.
i guess i have a lot to look forward to:)
Wow. Yes, I relate. What happened to me? But, this is what we're really here for. It's just strange how being a mom completely transforms us.
Happy birthday, Ambrose! What a blessing and a joy. I love seeing him grow, if only in pictures and postings. The pic of you laying down with him in the hospital is my ultimate favorite, ever. You are such an amazing person and mom! And yes, we need to hear the rest of the Ireland story!!
What in the world? We let you go on that British Literature Study Abroad program and I thought you were reading in a musty castle the whole time!!!
Seriously, I am so proud of you for embracing marriage, motherhood, and life with such enthusiasm. Ambrose has provided great joy, delight, and great entertainment for his grandparents.
you have such a way with words. i love reading your blog. and i love you and your family!
i just love this post. LOVE IT!
a) i never knew the pre-marriage/kid steph, so it's nice to say 'hey' to her.
b) i think it's good to remember that we were/are unique, vivacious individuals underneath all of our duties and lovely responsibilities we're currently embracing.
c) i <3 converse
I love this post. I wish I could come over and bake with you. love you. happy birthday Ambrose.
It is funny where life takes you. things always seem funny when you look back at where you have come from.But you are totally doing what you are supposed to be doing. Plus that food sounds seriously good and you look great in all your pictures. Happy Birthday Ambrose.
you are the best, that's who.
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